Sunday, May 16, 2010

God Has Big Plans for Me

Does it ever end?

I realized this last night . . . I was sharing with someone about my history. Dad died (heart attack) when I was 13. Mom died (breast cancer) when I was 22. Miscarried (at 11 weeks) when I was 34. Had surgery to removed endometriosis and lost one fallopian tube also age 34. Now my father in law has stage 4 stomach cancer and has been giving 3-6 months to live (and I'm still 34) So age 34 not so good so far looking forward to 35. But here is what I've realized with all this loss and this sadness God MUST be preparing me for something really really big - because I've sure had my fair share of bad but all that bad lead me to the "Arms of the Lord" so it was all very worth it. And what ever He has planned for me next will make it all worth it in the end.

I sometimes wish God would tell me what those plans are but all I can do is hold on to a couple verse from the Bible that remind me.

Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Romans 5:3-6
3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. 6 When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners.

No matter the direction my life takes God already knows where I'm going, and if I open my heart and ears and listen to His path I can not go wrong.


  1. ((HUGS)) I pray that those words are fact. I remember the day (different circumstances) that I said "God must be preparing me for something" and things did get better. Praying that wonderful comes your way.

  2. I really like that verse in Romans. It reminds me that there is a purpose for the trials that I go through. And I really can see how they have changed me to become a better person. Still sucks though!